Are you feeling suicidal and worried that you can't keep yourself safe? Dial 111 to phone NHS 24 and ask for a mental health assessment. 

Suicidal ideation: Stay Alive - safety planning and psychoeducation (smartphone app) - https://www.stayalive.app/ 

The Midspace support directory can help you find support available for adults living and/or working in Midlothian.  Midspace | Find support

Suggested books:

Stop Walking on Eggshells by Paul T. Mason and Randi Kreger

Lost Connections by Johann Hari

The Myth of Normal by Daniel Maté and Gabor Maté

The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel van der Kolk

When Things Fall Apart by Pama Chodron